28.5 Weeks In

28.5 weeks with baby #2 and feeling slightly overwhelmed (but totally excited)* looking back on my pregnancy with r*a*s- i can now see how easy that experience was* although she came early, everything went really smoothly up until the traumatic induction that happened so fast i couldn't even think about what was going on (blood pressure issues there too)* with r*a*s- it was pretty much 36 weeks of mommy and baby in belly time* this pregnancy, not so much* starting at 8 weeks my blood pressure started acting squirrely and it has felt more like "mommy BP cuff time" than
"mommy spend your time cookin' a baby" *i still don't think i have been given a "real" answer as to why my BP has been acting so nutty even after what feels like 2304823048 trips to the OBGYN and cardiologist*

last week they started me on a beta blocker* this made me want to throw up all over myself* being a nursing student i am pretty sensitive to drug research and i am worried about what this could mean for the bun cookin' in there* i know that the risk the BP was posing makes the meds necessary but still folks' grr..... i ran up to school and starting searching the medical journals and what i found made me almost fall backwards out of the chair* basically, what the research said was (adverse reaction found in fetal rabbits- no known research on human mother and fetus) rabbits? seriously* anyways, my husband has been dealing with stuff and i decided that the extra stress of a rabbit discussion was not really going to help matters* i decided to wait until my appointment today, with my OBGYN (i was seeing my normal doctor who had not prescribed the beta blocker) and in the mean time talked my mommy's ear off about my new found obsession with fetal rabbit/humans*

so now we are caught up to my appointment today* my blood pressure was normal again (without taking the beta blocker this morning)- which is very good news but frustrating at the same time* my doctor told me what to look for, when to take the beta blocker, and gave me some pretty crazy looks durning our "visit" (without me bring up the subject of rabbits)* i decided it was time for me to go ahead and ask her what the delivery plan looked like at this point* her response "get ready for a baby* at this point its a game to see how long you can keep her in there" thanks doc*

anyways, after all of this i drove very quietly to go pick up r*a*s-  on my way there i thought about a
lot of things* mainly how my growing child is about 2.5lbs right now* i tried to comfort myself and remind myself of all the medical advances in NICU care and how awesome my husband, 2 year old, mom, bio-mom (will make a new post about that) and mother in-law are* i know that even if this baby comes tomorrow that i have some really "tight" people who are going to lift up my little family with love and support* after coming to this peace i decided to take a look at how i had been doing things for the last 7months and what i could potentially change to give myself more time to prepare for this huge change that could come any second and currently presenting a lot of unknowns*

1) love my family more-  lots of hugs
2) start a blog and actually stick with it
3) get my house together
4) take a break from facebook and move to this blog- the people who really care about what i have to say would enjoy a blog more
                                  
Chlodzic,
TFS