Get It Right

the last 24 hours have been really hard* i had a doctors appointment yesterday, with my obgyn* last week on tuesday i had an appointment with my cardiologist*after the appointment last week i left feeling really stressed out* i didn't understand why he was decreasing my meds when my blood pressure was 164/100* i convinced myself that my frustration was crazy and that my doctor knew what he was doing but, when i got to my obgyn yesterday, i was sure she was going to throw my chart-- she was so angry* i don't understand why they can't get my blood pressure controlled*

yesterday, was m*d*s day off so he went with me to the appointment* it was nice to have him there so he could hear for himself what my doctor said about the blood pressure issue* but..... after the doctors appointment he was in a horrible mood* he had a really short fuse all day yesterday*  it seemed like everything i did set him off* this morning wasn't much better* things are still really tight with the money stuff and when he realized just how tight it was going to be for the next couple of weeks he got super nervous and flew off the deep end* he is working really, really, really hard to make sure his girls are taken care of and i know he is frustrated* i decided to let him cool off and give him some space* he took r*a*s to school and i did some research on the blood pressure thing trying to figure out just how bad all of that looks* in the middle of my research i decided to check to see if my last grade was posted for the spring semester* i seriously made myself sick when i saw it* i was expecting an A and when the grade came up it said F(obviously this was wrong)* even though i knew an error had been made a million things flew threw my mind* how could this have happened* i called m*d*s in absolute hysterics (he now felt horrible for how he had acted this morning--- since it added a lot of unnecessary stress to my morning)* long story short, half way into last semester my last name changed with the school* there was a miscommunication between my professor and administration and she had given me the wrong grade thinking i was a mystery student who had never attended her class* all of this is now cleared up*

m*d*s took on the task of trying to grow grass in the yard of the house we are renting* i am excited to report that it has started to grow* this afternoon (if it warms up) i am going to let r*a*s jump threw the sprinkler (one of her all time fav things to do)* last night was r*a*s seventh night of putting herself to bed after her bath and our reading time together (her sticker chart is working)* i am so proud of her* she still has a couple of tears when i leave (which is hard) but, we give each other a lot of hugs and kisses and after about 30 minutes she is out like a light* i think she is getting better sleep* she is waking up earlier which is kind of a pain but, she waking up at the same time every morning which means she is getting consistent sleep*

tomorrow is grandparents day at r*a*s school* since she does not have any grandparents in memphis one of our very best "grandfriends" will be attending* she is so excited about this and so am i* i think i will sneak around tomorrow and take pictures of the event* tomorrow i will post about how everything went (im sure it will be fantastic)*

Chlodzic,
TFS