Rock-A-Baby

trying to help r*a*s- into a sleep routine has been difficult* at one point, we had it down pat* then we had people come visit and since the guest room wasn't set up yet, they stayed in her room and she stayed with us* this-was-a-mistake* it breaks my heart to hear her cry and call for me* last night wasn't so bad* she didn't cry or scream, she just sat in her room for two straight hours talking to herself* at one point i had myself convinced that going out-back and cutting my foot off was going to be less painful than listening to another minute of soft begging* i finally gave in* i love this kid- to the moon and back and all around the universe (i tell her this all the time)*

this week has been difficult* no particular reason* i think it might be hormones but, dang---i feel funny* the thought of taking a break from my facebook makes me nuts* this has proven even more how important it is that i do this* only a handful of people have gotten in touch with me about the issue of facebook* while that fact further confirms my point--- it makes me sad* i have lost touch with my "peeps*" most of this--not my doing* after we moved to memphis, people sort of just stopped answering phone calls etc* i haven't made that many friends in memphis* i feel sort of guilty because my husband is pretty much my only friend at the moment---he knows it too* i would not change much of anything though* i have a really awesome family, a really cool kid, and a new baby on the way all of these things deserve my focus at this stage of life* trust me, i get so much more back from =these people than what i give* as sad as this stuff makes me--- when i think about it, i know i'm exactly where i should be*

back in december our little family was dealing with a lot* in fact, i feel like even the six months prior to that we were overloaded with junk* my husband started working for this company that ended up being connected with an over seas mafia (how nuts is that) trying to get him out of it sucked* he walked into it completely unknowing and was just trying to make an honest living as a locksmith* we did not know about the scandal associated with some of those "companies*" anyway, things came to a head back in december when my husband was held at gun point* after this, i insisted that money was totally unimportant because i didn't know what i would do without that "only friend*" very carefully we pulled him out of the "company" that was honestly about to kill him physically and mentally* since all of this, he has landed a really great job* i am so proud of him* he is still starting out so things are still tight when it comes to finances but, he is so happy it doesn't even matter* right in the middle of trying to pull m*d*s- out of this "company" one of the guys that worked with him wrecked one of our cars* that landed us right in the middle of a lawsuit* the lady who the guy hit claimed she was "emotionally hurt" i had to get a family lawyer (thank god for those) involved* one day i hope that lady wakes up and smells her own b*s* the guy who wrecked our car--i feel bad for him* he called me today, saying the was going to have to scrap the jeep* for some reason i got really angry-- not typical of my character in things like this* i didn't let him know i was angry but, i wish all things wrapped up in that "company" would just go away* on top of the car issue--we are dealing with tax issues from that "company*" basically they are trying to put off some of their taxes onto m*d*s- these people are scum* we will leave it at that*

i am looking forward to this weekend with my family* r*a*s- is so excited about the easter bunny i think she may combust* tomorrow, weather permitting, (since she will be out of school) i plan to take her to the zoo* she has been talking about the elephants all week* today, it's raining* when she realized that the elephants were probably get wet i thought she was going to throw herself into a tailspin of hysterics* this child is a total blessing*

Chlodzic,
TFS